The Ideal Job…

Its been a long block but I am back.. This is something I have been meaning to share with so many of you because I feel we share a lot of common grounds with this one in today’s competitive world.

The biggest hype I have experienced is about getting an ideal job. Now what is it really! I have studied Bachelors in Architecture which has been my passion since I could spell career. And I am satisfied. I work as an analyst with workforce in Barclays and I am satisfied too. I know you are surprised. Most of the people around me are. Coz I’m expected to be an architect building layouts after layouts.

I have received so much criticism in d face of being constructive critics really I kind of have lost the count. There have been days when I did give this a lot of thought. And there are days when it hasn’t even crossed my mind. Through all this turmoil in me I have reached one conclusion. I am not content. I am not satisfied or even close to settled. But again it hits me, “How screwed up can I be ??” And until I find whatever that is I am going to work really hard.

Sometimes careers don’t work with the plan we have set in our minds. And I have seen this a lot.

I have been working for 9 years and its been a mixture of what not : ranging along as Tele callers, receptionist, office assistant, data entry operator, customer service, workforce analyst, graphic designer and architect. And its been an amazing journey so far. All through school and college I have slogged to become an architect. But as I worked with every other designation I realised I was good at it.

As I grew up I have realised one thing. We may not really work for our dream job. All we really have to do is to make the most of what we are. Even the dream job can be an illusion. And it has worked for me. I have always thought my lowest attribute is the fear of failure. And to this I was always told that I should never share my weakness to anyone. But hey ! Are we not suppose to face our fears ? And how can we face our fears if we can’t even say it out aloud ? So I have said it out aloud to myself and faced it everyday. Everyday I fell flat on my face if I failed and got up to thrash it again. And that made me a winner in every aspect of my life. I might not have received the title but I can give myself a pat on the back.

So okay world I am ready !! Coz I know you will find a way to mess things up BUT this time I am ready coz I know how to make the best of anything.

With a Determined Smile I sign off,

Ciao World.


Toxins in Life & I Mean People

A weekend that has allowed me to comprehend. What is it that I fear of the most ? And the only answer that I have now is that I can really just un-love people if they mess with my self esteem. (just fyi I do not mean boyfriend or girlfriend, or the people around us in daily lives) And I am satisfied.I am proud of myself so I decide to write this out. But I was not the same always.

As an individual we can do almost anything. Nothing is impossible. And I am not trying to be overconfident. I believe one should go with whatever works for him/her. Perseverance, karma or determination – you choose.

But with the wicked life playing its part  we overlook the simplest of things. Over the span of years I have survived & observed that situations can be both good or bad. But more than the situation people affect us. People who try to demean you and mock your efforts. Not only do they crush your esteem they leave you hating yourself. And if one can flush these toxins out of life it makes the world so much of a better place to live in.

No one is you and that is your power. Realise it. 

Accept it and use it. I personally follow the act of listening to everything. Only then do I have the power to reason out and act of my own. But then, REASONING.. That’s what makes us special animals.Isn’t it ??It seems we have skipped the basic of our existence.

Say No. Stop making yourself available to people and watch your life change for better. Do not allow people to consume you. You live for yourself.

I cannot stress this enough “Everyone else IS and SHOULD BE secondary”. 

When I say this I do not mean to be selfish. I love the people in my life. But even for love one cannot let the other one drown you with them. Neither you nor they are of any use then. Ask them to leave.  Or rather you leave. It may seem impossible. It might break your heart. It may even rip your soul apart. But dear strong one, please walk away. This is not being selfish. It is an act of self care.

Most of the times, I feel, we are judged by people who are not even close of getting their shit together. Funny it is. But do not accept the critics. Be more concerned of your character than your reputation because at the end of the road the character is the mirror of your conscience, it is who you are and reputation is a mere report card by society.

And now grieve over it. Dont be a facade of strength. Cry and break down alone. Tear a few papers, break a few glasses, scream it out. Eat a whole tub of ice cream. And then forgive yourself for accepting less than you deserved and never do it again. 

I may not sound sane, but hey didnt I say whatever works for you !!

I am my kind of crazy.

Ciao beautiful souls