A weekend that has allowed me to comprehend. What is it that I fear of the most ? And the only answer that I have now is that I can really just un-love people if they mess with my self esteem. (just fyi I do not mean boyfriend or girlfriend, it the people around us in daily lives) And I am satisfied.I am proud of myself so I decide to write this out. But I was not this a year back.
As an individual we can do almost anything. Nothing is impossible. And I am not trying to be overconfident. I believe one should go with whatever works for him/her. Perseverance, karma or determination – you choose.
But with the wicked life playing its part we overlook the simplest of things. Over the span of years I have survived I have observed that situations can be both good or bad. But more than the situation people affect us. People who try to demean you and mock your efforts. Not only do they crush your esteem they leave you hating yourself. And if one can flush these toxins out of life it makes the world so much of a better place to live in.
No one is you and that is your power. Realise it.
Accept it and use it. I personally follow the act of listening to everything. Only then do I have the power to reason out and act of my own. But then, REASONING.. That’s what makes us special animals.Isn’t it ??It seems we have skipped the basic of our existence.
Say No. Stop making yourself available to people and watch your life change for better. Do not allow people to consume you. You live for yourself.
I cannot stress this enough “Everyone else IS and SHOULD BE secondary”.
When I say this I do not mean to be selfish. I love the people in my life. But even for love one cannot let the other one drown you with them. Neither you nor they are of any use then. Ask them to leave. Or rather you leave. It may seem impossible. It might break your heart. It may even rip your soul apart. But dear strong one, please walk away. This is not being selfish. It is an act of self care.
Most of the times, I feel, we are judged by people who are not even close of getting their shit together. Funny it is. But do not accept the critics. Be more concerned of your character than your reputation because at the end of the road the character is the mirror of your conscience, it is who you are and reputation is a mere report card by society.
And now grieve over it. Dont be a facade of strength. Cry and break down alone. Tear a few papers, break a few glasses, scream it out. Eat a whole tub of ice cream. And then forgive yourself for accepting less than you deserved and never do it again.
I may not sound sane, but hey didnt I say whatever works for you !!
I am my kind of crazy.
Ciao beautiful souls