Toxins in Life & I Mean People

A weekend that has allowed me to comprehend. What is it that I fear of the most ? And the only answer that I have now is that I can really just un-love people if they mess with my self esteem. (just fyi I do not mean boyfriend or girlfriend, it the people around us in daily lives) And I am satisfied.I am proud of myself so I decide to write this out. But I was not this a year back.

As an individual we can do almost anything. Nothing is impossible. And I am not trying to be overconfident. I believe one should go with whatever works for him/her. Perseverance, karma or determination – you choose.

But with the wicked life playing its part  we overlook the simplest of things. Over the span of years I have survived I have observed that situations can be both good or bad. But more than the situation people affect us. People who try to demean you and mock your efforts. Not only do they crush your esteem they leave you hating yourself. And if one can flush these toxins out of life it makes the world so much of a better place to live in.

No one is you and that is your power. Realise it. 

Accept it and use it. I personally follow the act of listening to everything. Only then do I have the power to reason out and act of my own. But then, REASONING.. That’s what makes us special animals.Isn’t it ??It seems we have skipped the basic of our existence.

Say No. Stop making yourself available to people and watch your life change for better. Do not allow people to consume you. You live for yourself. 

I cannot stress this enough “Everyone else IS and SHOULD BE secondary”. 

When I say this I do not mean to be selfish. I love the people in my life. But even for love one cannot let the other one drown you with them. Neither you nor they are of any use then. Ask them to leave.  Or rather you leave. It may seem impossible. It might break your heart. It may even rip your soul apart. But dear strong one, please walk away. This is not being selfish. It is an act of self care.

Most of the times, I feel, we are judged by people who are not even close of getting their shit together. Funny it is. But do not accept the critics. Be more concerned of your character than your reputation because at the end of the road the character is the mirror of your conscience, it is who you are and reputation is a mere report card by society.  

And now grieve over it. Dont be a facade of strength. Cry and break down alone. Tear a few papers, break a few glasses, scream it out. Eat a whole tub of ice cream. And then forgive yourself for accepting less than you deserved and never do it again. 

I may not sound sane, but hey didnt I say whatever works for you !!

 I am my kind of crazy.

Ciao beautiful souls

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The Gospel Truth.

Truth ! Honesty ! Big words. What is truth? How much of my world has been truth? I wonder…

When there is conflict in my life I have never made good decisions. I don’t sleep well because my mind is busy weighing pros and cons,playing “What If?” 

Oh dear, That question had broken me down quite a few times.  

Through the years I have accepted that I am surrounded by a layer of hypocrisy. Mind you, I am no rebel. I am a girl who wanted to soar high only to realise that when you are asked to fly it means your boundaries are set. Over the years I have tried to observe our fancy society and understand what do they really want from a girl.Family, friends or any stranger that I cross. And then it hits me. I am a girl. I cant question. Or Cant I?

I am no feminist. But everytime wrong happens my heart flips and my gut sickens. This ingrained contempt against a species of mankind just because they have breasts and vagina has failed to humour me anymore.I have no intention of changing the society. But I have changed my world. I have created my safe haven.And I wish every human being does the same. 

My blog is to express the feeling of a little girl. The tears hidden in the pillow, the screams muffled within, the disappointments gulped down. Coz I am proud of all this. 

Signing off. Ciao World.😊

Crazy Me! Sensible Me!

I have always wanted to write. But the sucker truth of life has put my mood on to the biggest swings of life. And today as I make the longest ride to office (which i do everyday btw…) I just formed my blog.Yes, thats how it has begun. Silly it may sound but this is it.

Well now who am I?? Do I really need to define myself??  Am I sounding too stuck up ?? This is what I am thinking right now. I have been this confused and messed up all my life. Though I look quite sorted, thank god for that.

My relationship with life has been a hell of a journey. In short , we have had the best times and then fucked each other up. LOL. Yes. Thats what it is. Sounds simple. Its my beginning.

Ciao World…cropped-img_20161126_183238.jpg